Sorry..

Assalamualaikum..

Entry kali ni..sambungan untuk entry My Smiley..

"Sorry for everything"

Sebenarnye kata2 maaf ni indah..untuk orang yg tau menghargainya..
So..bile ade org minta maaf kat kite..
kite jgn la sombong..terime je la..
ibaratnye.."org memberi kite menerima"
x pon "x elok tolak rezeki"
hihihi >_<
bile kite memaafkan org lain..
hati kite jadi lebih tenang n dpt elakkan diri dr sifat dendam..
lagi..
org yg memaafkan lebih mulia berbanding org yg meminta maaf..
#teori sendiri

Berbalik pada cerite asal..
Smiley selalu minta maaf..walaupun kadang2 bukan salah die..
Bile die rase bersalah..
bnyk msg minta maaf tersesat dlm hp sy..
Contohnye mcm.....
Sory lambat
Sorry salah tny
Sory.sory.sory  :-(
Mintak maaf :-(

Selalunye rase bersalah 2 dtg disebabkan oleh...
Tgh msg..lepas 2 tertido..
x pon reply lambat..

Sebenarnye..bile hati tengah marah..
N..lepas 2 tibe2 ade org minta maaf..
Kite secara automatic x jadi nk marah..
Pernah x semue jadi mcm ni??
mesti ade kan??

So..dalam pandangan mata saya..
meminta maaf adalah satu sikap yg mulia..
walaupun kite rase..kite x buat salah..
#padahal kite x perasan kite dah sakitkan hati org lain..

Jadi..kesimpulannye..
X salah minta maaf selalu..
Terutamenye awak..(Smiley)

Akhir kata dari sy..
"Jangan jadi org yg sombong yg perasan dirinye sentiasa betol..
Tapi jadilah org yg rendah diri..
yg sentiasa meminta maaf pada org lain..
Walaupun itu bukan kesalahan kite.. "

Jom bercinta sampai SYURGA

See you..

My Smiley

Hello semue.. Hari yang indah ni saya nk share dgn semue tentang My Smiley.. a.k.a my Mr.Right Macam mane name Smiley ni wujud?? Almost semue message die ade smiley.. mcm.. :) :-) :P Kalau semue nk tau.. die ni seorg yg suke berfikir..terlampau berfikir sampai stress kot.. Semue bende die nk fikir.. Kalau saya..malas nk fikir bnyk2 buat pening je.. @_@ Kalau nk bandingkan kitorng berdua mmg berbeza sangat.. Saya ni banyak cakap..die kurang bercakap.. Ade satu hari tu..dlm train..time ktorng otw balik Arau.. Saya ajak die bersembang..sampai saya rase die xnk layan ape yg saya cerite.. No respond.. Time 2 rase sedih sangat.. Dah la lame x jumpe..mesti la banyak bende nak cite.. betol x?? Tapi..bile org yg pendiam ni..berkata-kata.. selalunye bende yg betol dan x merapu.. Bukan nk kate org yg talk active ni ckp merapu.. cume org2 mcm sy ni..terlampau byk idea nk ckp.. hihihihi  >_< nk tau lagi?? Die seorg yg tak relax n kebut (kelam-kabut) x tau la nk cite mcm mane.. Ape yg pasti.. die seorg lelaki yg dah curi hati sy.. So..sy x leh hidup tanpe die..   Akhir sekali.. "Saya berdoa..yang awak adalah lelaki yg memang dijodohkan utk saya.. Saya harap..awaklah lelaki yg akan menjaga saya sehingga hujung nyawa saya.. Saya juga berharap..kite akan bersama hingga syurga.." AMIN..  to be continue...

My Mr.Right

 

  Today..I got new idea for my new entry.. About my Mr.Right..
I'm always pray.. "Oh Allah please show me if his the right guy for me.. If his the right guy for me just open my heart to accept him.. But if not I'm redha with Your will"
Not long ago.. I'm wrote a story of  "Waiting for someone" for my first entry..  Therefore today..I want share it with everyone that.. This is the ending of my waiting..
"Everyone in this world want to love and to be loved" Same goes to me.. My heart said his the right guy for me.. And I'm very sure his the person that Allah created for me..
His the first guy that make me always miss him.. and Waiting for his text everyday..
There is no reasons why you are so special to me.. and There is no reason why I love you..
To me the answers is one..Allah was open my heart to you.. Therefore please take care of me and my heart.. Do you know why?? Because it not easy for me to open my heart to accepts you.. And now.. There is no one in this world can take your place..
Lastly..I'm sending this love letter to you.. My dear 'Adam'.. You don't have to be rich for me to love you.. You don't have to drive a BMW to be gorgeous.. But I'm just want you to be my Imam.. Boleh??

Notebook of Love

Notebook of Love

_Really wanna be like my parents_

Assalamualaikum..

Dah lame x update blog ni..Saje je nk kongsi cerite dgn semue..My sweet love parents..Walaupun dieorng dah tua dan hampir setengah abad..Tapi still bergurau-senda.. mcm org muda yg tengah bercinta..“Bercinta sampai syurga..”Walaupun byk rintangan dan dugaan..cinta abah n mak x pernah lusuh..Sampai sekarang.. Nak gi mane2 je nk berdue je..x nk ade org kacau..dating la kate kan..Dulu x sempat nk dating..sbb jage ank2..Tapi sekarang nilah masenye..Sbb ank2 pon dah besar n kerja.. Perkahwinan itu pastinya ade cabaran dan dugaan..yg pasti buatkan mereka kuat dan belajar dari setiap kesilapan yg pernah mereka lakukan..Impian sy nk jadi mcm parents saya la..hahaha ^_^

_SmileyChibi_

Kisah Cinta Tak Semestinya Happy Ending

Kisah Cinta Tak Semestinya Happy Ending

Assalamualaikum semua..

Hari ni saya ingin menceritakan satu kisah cinta yang sedih.

Kalau semue nk tahu..saya x berape nk minat cerita yang sedih..

Tapi saya mengaku..x semue kisah cinta akan berakhir dgn happy ending..

Watak utama dalam cerita ni Michael Yip dan Siti Fatihah..

Michael merupakan seorang lelaki Cina berumur awal 20-an..

Merupakan seorang interior designer muda..peramah..suka senyum..handsome..

tinggi..seorg yg confident..

Fatimah..seorang budak skola berumur 16thn..muda 5 tahun dari Michael..

Dah la gedik dan ngada2..biasala budak2 kan..

Pada suatu hari, family Fatimah nak pindah rumah baru..

so nk kene buat renovation sikit..

Nak dikatakan jodoh..Michael yg handle project 2..

Dari situ..dieorg kenal each other..semakin hari semakin rapat..

Sewaktu Fatimah dah menjangkau umur 17 tahun..Renovation tak siap lagi..

Dalam tahun tu..Fatimah sibuk dgn persiapan nk SPM..

so dieorng jarang jumpe..

Tak lame lepas tu keputusan SPM dah keluar..

Fatimah dapat tawaran bwt PLKN 3 bulan..

dalam tempoh tu renovation rumah barunya akan siap..

So..dieorg tak jsempat nk jumpe each other..and say goodbye..

Kemudian Fatimah dapat tawaran sambung blajar kat UTM..

Dieorg still contact..tapi mcm kawan biase..Cuma x mesra mcm dulu..

Masing2 cerita topic yg agak membosankan..

Macam..penat keje,malas blaja, bwt assignment, n busy..

Tak lame lepas tu..Ibu Fatimah still perlukan interior designer utk rumah mereka..

Jadi ibu Fatimah decide untuk panggil Michael untuk membantu..

Pada waktu itu Fatimah sedang cuti semester..

Pada suatu hari ditakdirkan mereka berjumpa..

Fatimah terkejut tapi dlm hati..betape rindunya dia pada Michael..

Masing2 memendam rasa..

Sejak dari itu hubungan mereka kembali rapat..

Bercerita,bergaduh nak bilik warna ape, yg n ink bwt mcm mane, xnk warne ni,

Nak yg ni,baergaduh pendapat tak same..tapi mereka bahagia sngt..

Hubungan mereka semakin rapat..

Hubungan mereka direstui family masing2..

Kadang2 dieorng msg..call bile rindu..ym..skype..

Sekarangkan zaman technology..

Cuma Fatimah x mampu untuk manaruh perasaan sngat kat Michael..

Takot kecewa..

jika bandingkan dirinya yang banyak sangat kelemahan..

Tak lame lagi cuti sem dah nk habis..Sejak akhir2 ni Michael kurang sihat..

Die jgk busy dgn kerja yg semakin byk..

Sejak berkenalan dgn Fatimah rezekinya melimpah ruah..

Tapi die still can handle all those things..

 Malam tahun baru..Fatimah pulang ke kampung..

Dalam perjalan balik..Michael msg I ade kejutan utk u tahun baru ni..

Fatimah excited..x sabar nk sampai rumah..

Ring!!! Ring!!! Michael call..

Suasana sunyi je..cume dgr hembusan nafas yg tersekat-sekat..

Tibe2 terdengar..

‘ASHADUALLA ILA HA ILLALLAH WA ASHADUANNA MUHAMMADURRASULLILLAH”

Suara seorng lelaki syahadah sayup2 kedengaran..

Tibe2 panggilan terputus..

Tak lame lepas 2 adik Michael msg

  ‘Akak.. Michael passed away. All this while, he was suffering of the brain cancer. You have to see him before the funeral okay. Get here as soon as possible. I am sorry’

Air mata Fatimah bercucuran membasahkan pipi yg kering..

 Bermacam-macam peristiwa yg bermain difikirannya sekarang..

Kata-kata manis, lagu yg dia nyanyikan, kenangan gelak tawa n cerita kisah mereka..

Setibanya di rumah Michael..dia gagahkan jugak utk x menitiskan air mata..tapi dia tewas..

Adik Michael..Angle memeluk Fatimah..

Tak lame lepas tu Ibu Michael pula memeluk Fatimah..Sambil berbisik ke telinga Fatimah

‘Fatimah..I am really sorry for not telling you the truth. This was his last request. He did suffering of brain cancer. When he knew you, he felt that you are the person that he’s waiting for. He felt in love with you. For the first time, he fall in love. And the love that he want was, yours. It was you. He became stronger just because your love. He learned about Islam, when you are not here. He was very happy when he met you. Eventhough he’s not feeling well. You though him about life, about the happiness, about the difficulty through many circumstances, about the future. He convert to Islam almost two years back. I am really sorry’

‘In this box, there were many things for you from him. He kept them all this while and as he wished to meet you yesterday’

Fatimah membuka kotak tersebut..didalamnya terdapat diari..

17 Mei 2007

Today was her birthday. I would like to give her this necklace. But, I don't think she will accept it. I am worrying about this now. I missed to look at her smile. She was so cute! :D

17 Mei 2008

I converted into Islam, this morning. My new name is Ahmad Amirul Afifi. Near to her name. I felt really nervous at first, so do excited. But, through my studies, learning from the Ustaz, the stories about the prophet. I did it. I made it! It was the precious time ever. Very excited now to tell her the truth! Hope she will not be fainted. Hahaha.

17 Mei 2009

Saya nak beli telekung ni untuk dia dengan ummi dia. Hope she like it. May she remember me always, like I did. Insya Allah.

Fatimah mencium kain telekung tersebut..sambil menangis..

17 March 2010

I banked in, RM5000 today in Bank Tabung Haji. Ni gaji first saya . Kalau panjang umur, saya nak pergi haji dengan dia! Insya Allah.

17 Mei 2010

I did this Ayat Kursi for her, write in tulisan khat and framed it. I wished to give her. Insya Allah!Lil bit dirty, because saya tak mahir lagi. I loved her handwriting in Jawi. Wished to learn more writing in Jawi.

Akhir sekali sepucuk surat..

'Assalamualaikum awakk. Hihi. Ada banyak sangat cerita saya nak bagitau awak. I wrote it for you already in those diaries. Wished you read all of them. It about us baby. About you, about me. I sayang you laa! Sampai I mati. Maybe, when you read this letter, I am off. I am not with you anymore. I dah pergi jumpa Dia dulu. He would love to choose me you know. I am really sorry sebab tak bagitau you the truth. But, you knew how I am right? Secret is my priority. I wished to meet you on the first day of your class, by wearing this beg and this watch. But, I don't think I manage to do that. This was your upcoming birthday present. Hope you liked it and will wear it. Okayy sayang? You remembered right all those words that I told you? Tolong jaga diri baik  baik. I dah takde. I don't have time to talk a lot here. Just wishing the best in your future. You made my days, my life, so do my future. I love you till death. I promised with you right. And I made it. I hoped that you will not regret in anything that we made together. Promises that we made together. You must be stronger when I am not around. Don't you cry, and be moody all the time. That is not good kan? You thought me to spread the love kan? So, you should do it too. Promised me that you will remember me always okay? I missed you seriously. I wished to meet you before. But, you can't. It's okay. Thank you for everything sweetheart. EVERYTHING! I love you till death, heartbeat. Assalamualaikum!'

_SmileyChibi_

Preparing for Ramadan

Assalamualaikum..

The blessed & most beautiful month is around the corner..

I mean Ramadan..

Are you ready for it..

So..ask yourself..

what preparation have you done??

what better time to prepare for it than right now..Sya'ban

The Sya'ban used to prepare for Ramadan..

So if we really want to make the best of this Ramadan then we need to prepare for it now!!!

This may be our last Ramadan..

Allah SWT says:
Take one step towards me
 I will take 10 steps towards you
Walk towards me
I will run towards you

_SmileyChibi (^_^)v_

Terima Kasih Semua ^_^

Assalamualaikum..

Today I want to say thank you to all my family, my lectures, my friends and my Smiley..

Thank you for give me a support when I'm fell down..

There are too much pain to bear when I'm alone..

 I'm not a person who can handle a problem myself..

 I'm not a person who love to be alone..

 I  need others to accompany me..

I need others to calm me when i'm crying..

I need others to hearing my problems and solve them together..

There are too many memories..

The happiness and the sadness..

But people said " Happiness is the challenges, and Sadness will make us strong"

To my family..

"Thank you for always being there to remind me what is right and 

what is wrong" 

To my friends..

"You are stars to me.

Even I can't always see you,but I know you are there,

and you a shine brightness when all seems dark.

Thank you for being my friend.."

Lastly To my Smiley..

"Thank you for standing by my side when times get hard..

 thank you for making me laugh when I did not even want to smile..

Loving you soooo much"

_SmileyChibi_

Assalamualaikum..

Selamat hari Jumaat..

Sesungguhnya Jumaat adalah penghulu segala hari..

Setiap orang ade impian & cita-cita..

Impian saya untuk menjadi seorang Leftenan Muda hampir tercapai..

Selama 3 tahun ni..saya bersabar je..

Segala kesenggaraan,kesusahan, dan kesedihan akhirnye berbaloi..

Diri ni..bukannye kuat sangat pon..

Ape yang penting Mental kite..

Impian saya hampir tercapai..

Sikit je lagi..

6 & 7 Julai 2013 dah tauliah..

Coming soon.. 

Perjalan ni masih jauh lagi..

Banyak lagi persediaan nk kene buat..

Fizikal..Mental kene kuat..

Nak kene jage badan lagi..

takot gemok..Habis la one dress x muat..

nnt x leh nk tauliah pulak.. 

Saya nak ucapkan ribuan terima kasih..

kepada kawan2 & family saya yang banyak memberikan dorongan..

mase mule2 masuk memang banyak cabaran..

Clash dengan jadual belajar..

Susah nak bahagikan masa untuk belajar & training..

Malam2 telefon mak..luahkan perasaan sambil menangis..

Stress..

x leh nk belajar..

Senior kacau sampai 4 pagi..

Mak  cakap " Sabar je la..X lame pon 3 tahun"

Tengok!! Now I be What I want To be

Syukur Alhamdulillah..

Perjuangan Masih Belom Habis Lagi..

Ni gambar time Pembukaan Latihan Berterusan di UiTM Lendu Melaka..

 Seminggu jugak la training..

Pejam celik- pejam celik dah habis..

Kejap je..

The problem is..

muka da x seputih dulu..

So!! skrng operasi memutihkan muka..

(Gelap pon tapi ade org syg x pe..hihihihih :) )

Pengalaman selame seminggu ni..susah nk lupe..

pagi2 dah bangun solat subuh..n tunggu utk berbaris pagi..

lepas berbaris.. PT@physical training..

lepas 2 ade kawad..

(tibe2 rindu En.RSM pulak..)

"kamu boleh buat tapi kamu malas"

2 la ayat yg selalu dia cakap kat kitorg..

"kamu angkat kaki kadet jgn malas..angkat kaki, bengkok lutut,kaki paras, hentak padat"

hahaha ^_^ 

nk cite pasal En.RSM sampai esk x habis2..

selalu nye..kawad sampai tgh hari je..

waktu petang pulak..kalo xde kawad kitorg ade kelas..

bwt syarat je..bukan bwt ape2 pon..

malam pon same..kalo ade kelas pon..kelas tgk movie..

heaven sangat..x mcm annual..

Akhir sekali..selagi belom tauliah badan kene fit..

Jom skuad..kite jage badan same2..

fighting..!!!